I am a traveler. And I am home. It has been about ten days since I took off from my newest home base of New York City, a home that I have dreamt of for years. I have returned to a place that I now acknowledge to be the most normal part of my life, being on the road, being on tour. Even though, I had not planned to be on this one and it came up last minute, immediately upon landing it was home.
I now find myself in another past home of Chicago. Chicago was my first home on my own. I moved here when I was 18 to attend college at Columbia College. I can hardly believe that was eleven years ago! I lived here from 1999-2003 as I worked my butt off in school and at the House of Blues Chicago, where I broke into sound and live concert production.
It is such an amazing feeling to feel at home in so many cities. I forget that this feeling doesn't exist for everyone. Even upon landing in India, for my first time, I had this feeling. I am grounded where ever I go, even when I don't no exactly where I am going.
Yes, being an avid traveler both for work and personally provides that for me, but I know that truthfully it is rooted inside me, this feeling of home. It is the feeling of being 100% comfortable and at one with who I am at any given moment. It doesn't matter what my surroundings are, it doesn't matter what language is being spoken, what type of music is being played, what the dress code is. I am me. I no longer have that feeling of having to prove myself. I no longer have that feeling of wanting to be liked, of wanting to be loved. Of course, I want to be liked and of course, I want to be loved, but to accomplish that I merely get to be me and love who I am being.
Along with the feeling of home. I really see each person whose path I cross as family. That is what I project onto the world. I am safe wherever I am. I am taken care of wherever I am. I am loved wherever I am.
I am grateful for all of life's experiences. What is this life for, if not to experience it, to be open to it, to be with it? I don't know what happens when my time here ends and I don't know when that time will come. So, I choose to be in this vast home of mine.