Saturday, November 7, 2009

a writer

Last week, while visiting friends and family, three different people told me that I needed to write a book. I saw these three people on separate occasions and the three people do not know each other. This was also before I took the plunge and started to write this blog. It is something that has come up in every reading that I have had with my astrologist as well, but I have always dismissed it immediately because I have never enjoyed writing. I used to pay one of my best friends to write papers for me in high school. So the idea of writing a book, was beyond crazy. It was ridiculous.

Something shifted this week though and although the idea of writing a book sounded soooo hard and I had no idea what the book would be about anyway, I started to see it as a possibility. When I got picked up at the train station in LA on Tuesday night, I said to a friend, "I am thinking I might want to write a book, people keep telling me I can." I repeated similar sentences to friends as I saw them and kept thinking that if I was going to believe in myself I needed to let go of all of the filler words I was using and just say, "I am going to write a book". I needed to stop saying I think and I might and just say it!

On Thursday afternoon, a friend I was just getting a chance to catch up with sat down next to me and I declared, "So, I am going to write a book!". I said it with full conviction and excitement and without even thinking about it. And you know what? I believed myself and so did she! After declaring this amazing statement, I could not hold back. I started to share it with everyone. I emailed my family. I called more friends. I told a guy that I am enjoying getting to know. I was no longer keeping this "crazy" idea to myself, I was no longer afraid to be judged. I was able to believe that I was going to write a book next year.

Today, I woke up and felt fully confident declaring myself as a writer. So far I have written 5 blogs, I am not sure if that counts as proof as being a writer, but I feel it. I am a writer. I feel like anyone in the world could ask me, "what do you do?" and I will eagerly reply, "I am a writer." This is huge for me, not only because I technically have no hard evidence of being a writer, but because I have almost never been able to feel confident in my response to that question.

In the job that I created for myself this year as the Joyologist, it took me a long time to be able to just answer with that one word and not go into a 3 minute spiel about the tasks I performed under the title. Under my title of Joyologist, I am a chef and a yoga teacher, but I have never felt comfortable calling myself either. I might say I teach the guys yoga or I prepare the food, but never could I confidently say I am a yoga teacher, I am a chef. In my career of being a sound engineer, I would confidently state my title, but I hated talking about my job, except to people that did the same job.

I feel that this is my destiny. That I am a writer. That this is what my life is for.

So, the next time you get an idea that you may think is crazy that you want for yourself. Declare it and then I believe you will become it!


  1. Wonderful wonderful wonderful Tricia! You already are a writer! Writing will be for you just another form of the creating that you've been doing all along. Continue to create in the truest forms you can find! If it's writing, the only advice I can give is, Write! Write write write without fear of edit. Write everything that's true, because the truth is all there is.

    All the best,

  2. I currently work in a photolab and people always tell me that I should be taking pictures for a living not developing everybody elses. I love taking pictures. I almost always have a camera in my hand and I always tell people I'm an "aspiring photographer". someday I tell everyone, maybe. but today, I AM a photographer!!! yes I am.. and you miss Tricia are a writer... yes you are...

    thank you. <3

  3. I recently had a similar epiphany when, after 15 years of saying "one day I'm going to be a midwife," God put a baby in my hands and said to me, "You ARE a midwife." The transformation has been amazing and the journey ahead is full of promise and hope for a change!

    Can't wait to read your book!!


  4. I understand you very well! I'm a writer too!
    Your words cleared my mind too.
    Go for it!
    nam myoho renge kyo

  5. I'm in the happiest Sunday ever finding your blog Tricia. And that's EXACTLY IT. DECLARING IT! The beauty of who you are, what you are, what we ALL are, is that you CAN create yourself as anything you want even before the "proof" of that manifests. Know yourself AS ANYTHING you want to manifest yourself as Now, and everything around you will organize itself in response to that KNOWING.

    Love & Blessings!

  6. Ahhhhhh loved one, this is amazing news. I would like to pre-order 2 copies please. :)
    You inspire me all the time but as I sit here I feel extra inspired hearing your declaration.
    Loving you and your writing too!

  7. I have been agonizing over "what to do with my life" for weeks now. Not sure if it's a "mid-life crisis" now that I'm in my 40's. I have an excellent profession, make great money, work from home...but there has to be more to life...I'm bored and most importantly, unhappy! I have been trying to figure out what I really want, not my little children or husband or friends and family, but what would make me happy...U have helped me to decide...I AM A WRITER TOO! I have this crazy life, always busy, always moving, always doing for others which I do not mind, but never fulfilling my dreams. I have decided to write a book about my crazy life, not because it's crazy, but because it's actually very funny...the dysfunction that exists in my world is hillarious and what better way than to express it, comically, could be more therapeutic for the soul. I have always said, "I wish I had time to write a book about the funny things in my family and life". So, thank you for helping me to make the I just have to figure out where I can squeeze this in...who needs sleep when u finally figure out peace! Good luck to u WRITER!!!! And thanks again!!

  8. I will read your book you amazing lady

  9. Hi Tricia,

    The only reason I write in a blog is to exercise my skill of writing. I usually think that I have to write something good so I could win a noble prize. After reading your blog here, I realize that, noble prize isn't my priority anymore. I just hope that I could still inspired and can inspire people through my write.
    So I'm declaring that I'm going to write from my heart.

    Thank you Tricia :D

  10. Coming into complete alignment with "Who You Really Are" is one of the most amazing, life affirming things one can do...

    ...the book will be wonderful and don't be surprised if it seems to write 'Itself'...I'm looking forward to reading it.

  11. Read a quote that made me think of your blog... (paraphrasing here) "The two most important days of your life are the day you are born and the day you realize why."

  12. You are some who's opportunities are endless. Write a book, write a cook book, do a yoga video. Be all that you can be? Oh wait, that's the army.

    You appear very passionate. Like the folks always told me back in the day, if you put your mind to it you can do anything.

  13. That is amazing, congratulations!! Unfortunately, it's sometimes easier to believe in others that it is to believe in oursleves!! Whenever you are doubting yourself, become your own "Joyologist" and pump yourself up as you would others. Best of Luck on your journey to express yourself in more that 140 words!!