a writer

Last week, while visiting friends and family, three different people told me that I needed to write a book. I saw these three people on separate occasions and the three people do not know each other. This was also before I took the plunge and started to write this blog. It is something that has come up in every reading that I have had with my astrologist as well, but I have always dismissed it immediately because I have never enjoyed writing. I used to pay one of my best friends to write papers for me in high school. So the idea of writing a book, was beyond crazy. It was ridiculous.

Something shifted this week though and although the idea of writing a book sounded soooo hard and I had no idea what the book would be about anyway, I started to see it as a possibility. When I got picked up at the train station in LA on Tuesday night, I said to a friend, "I am thinking I might want to write a book, people keep telling me I can." I repeated similar sentences to friends as I saw them and kept thinking that if I was going to believe in myself I needed to let go of all of the filler words I was using and just say, "I am going to write a book". I needed to stop saying I think and I might and just say it!

On Thursday afternoon, a friend I was just getting a chance to catch up with sat down next to me and I declared, "So, I am going to write a book!". I said it with full conviction and excitement and without even thinking about it. And you know what? I believed myself and so did she! After declaring this amazing statement, I could not hold back. I started to share it with everyone. I emailed my family. I called more friends. I told a guy that I am enjoying getting to know. I was no longer keeping this "crazy" idea to myself, I was no longer afraid to be judged. I was able to believe that I was going to write a book next year.

Today, I woke up and felt fully confident declaring myself as a writer. So far I have written 5 blogs, I am not sure if that counts as proof as being a writer, but I feel it. I am a writer. I feel like anyone in the world could ask me, "what do you do?" and I will eagerly reply, "I am a writer." This is huge for me, not only because I technically have no hard evidence of being a writer, but because I have almost never been able to feel confident in my response to that question.

In the job that I created for myself this year as the Joyologist, it took me a long time to be able to just answer with that one word and not go into a 3 minute spiel about the tasks I performed under the title. Under my title of Joyologist, I am a chef and a yoga teacher, but I have never felt comfortable calling myself either. I might say I teach the guys yoga or I prepare the food, but never could I confidently say I am a yoga teacher, I am a chef. In my career of being a sound engineer, I would confidently state my title, but I hated talking about my job, except to people that did the same job.

I feel that this is my destiny. That I am a writer. That this is what my life is for.

So, the next time you get an idea that you may think is crazy that you want for yourself. Declare it and then I believe you will become it!