Thursday, January 21, 2010
Current time, 4am. That is an improvement for me. I fell asleep at 10:30 ish and slept through my normal 1am wake-up call. Yesterday, was my worst day so far. My stomach was killing me and I am sure my body was just plain exhausted. My mouth was so dry that my tongue kept getting stuck to the roof of my mouth. I was trying to stay hydrated, but i guess I was failing on that account. I did make it to Whole foods, but once again my purchases were highly unusual for me. Gluten-free spaghetti and vegan cheez to make a grilled cheez. The veggies looked oh so delicious, but I could not imagine eating them with my current toilet to non-toilet ratio. I did get myself some Kombucha and a butternut squash, which I hope to eat today. I also, finally gave in to getting an antibiotic. I had plans of getting Black Walnut Hull, Wormood, and other natural eliminators, but I am not sure what happened there, because I left with only fresh ginger. I guess, I figured that since my body is already so out of whack and not really getting much nutrients that the antibiotics couldn't do too much harm. I have used a combo of natural herbs in the past to get rid of parasites, but I have never had whatever I am having right now and frankly I want it dead. I have given it enough time to work it's way out, 12 days is enough!
So when I got home, I first popped some raw garlic cloves into my mouth, which is my usual surefire virus killer. Then, after still more time deliberating on taking the prescription after I had it filled, I finally gave in. I find it quite amusing that one of the side effects of taking a medicine for traveler's diarrhea, is diarrhea. Oh, the medical world! The next few hours were miserable. I could barely talk. My mom called and told me she was bringing me home and IV and I said, "Yes, Please!" I have never done that before, but I knew my body was not hydrated by anything anymore. She also insisted on buying me Smartwater to get me more electrolytes. I got one IV down, and going to do another one in the morning. I hope to work some veggies back in my life tomorrow too and some yoga!
The good news is that I got approved for my little Hermosa Beach studio! I am sending in the deposit tommorrow, sight unseen. Well, sight unseen in person, but I have been on the building's website endlessly. It is in a brand new building, right on the water. New appliances and everything, so not too much to check out. Hard wood floors, walk-in closet, and my own private balcony! I got my bicycle enthusiast friends looking into bikes for me and I am already searching out work! I know it will all fall into place in the perfect way.
I am so grateful to be home in the US and home at my mom's. She hasn't had the chance to really take care of me in a long, long while, so I am sure she is enjoying it! I am definitely grateful for my heath, I haven't really been sick of any type in a long while and even though now I am pretty bad off, I am still fully functional so I have to remind myself to rest. My body and I have been through a lot together, years of doctors and mis-diagnosis and not knowing what was wrong. So, I got really used to just putting on a happy face and sucking it up. So much that a lot of times now, I forget to listen to my body's warning signs to slow down. I refuse to admit I am sick. So, I am grateful to now have the time and the compassion for myself to be able to stay in bed all day and not push my recovery too much. I will let this thing run its course and I will be grateful for it, for reminding how strong my body and mind really are.
Posted by Tricia Huffman at 1:04 AM