Last night I got home around 2am (highly unusual for me these days) and was wide awake. I planned to make it to a 6:45am yoga class today, but the time kept moving forward and I was still awake. Not just awake, but alive. I was stoked on life. Everything that I had been through to get me to today, all of the possibilities for the future and most importantly for enjoying my now! At 5am I tweeted “im in love....i will admit it. i am not afraid...I am in love with this life, no matter what it hands me. I believe in you, life and all u r.” That is a pretty rad thing to feel the need to express when still up and pondering if I am going to get to yoga class in less than 2 hours.
I finally ended up falling asleep around 5:30am and then woke up at 8am. My yoga studio has a class at 8:40am and 10:15, I can make either of these, I thought. I got up and felt great, none of the soreness that I had been feeling lately. No after effects of drinking half a bottle of wine a few hours earlier, in an effort to rock myself to sleep (and just because I wanted wine). I feel full of life and I want to write about so many things. I jot down a few things that come to me, so I can remember to touch on each of them. I love this! Being in my pajamas, wrapped in a warm sweater, sipping my tea, sitting at my desk, swaying to my music. I want to go to yoga, but I am inspired to write now and just want to be right here, enjoying my space, my home.
I start to write and I just feel so at home, typing away into my computer. This is what I want. This is who I am. I am a writer!!!!! I want this to be where my income comes from. Lately, so many ideas have been coming to me on what to do next. I of course want to continue to write and to publish books, but that is not paying my rent right now. I have come to realize that I am so happy not reporting for work and my writing is a full time job, it just doesn’t pay like one yet. So, I have not stressed myself looking for work. I am enjoying this time while it lasts and I am trusting the universe to show me the perfect opportunity at the perfect time.
At the same time I do notice my loves and where I know that I can make a difference. Friends point out my creativity and possible job ideas for me too. After constructing a birthday card out of some cardboard and sharpie markers for my friend everyone who saw it was passionate about me being a greeting card writer/designer. Another friend and the customers of her café want me to have my own reality TV show entitled “TAKE TRICIA TO WORK DAY”. This came about one day when I helped at her café. She clapped her hands together in glee and said, “I love take Tricia to work day!”. After I wrote the “I am being a stand for you and who you want to be” blog I felt so passionate about spreading my joy of life that I actually did want my own TV show of any style, because I make up that it is the most effective way to reach the masses. I just want to people to enjoy life, in all of its aspects. Really, I just want to be paid to be me.
I said that same statement a year and a half ago when I took a break from touring and retired from doing sound. Months later, I ended up creating my position as the joyologist, where I pretty much did get paid for being me. So I will let the manifesting do its thing!....and in the mean time I will keep doing my thing.