Ok, folks. I am doing it. I am surrendering my credit cards. I am putting them on lock down. I currently have $8.23 in my checking account and $1.77 in my savings account. I have racked up a total of $4681.09 on two different credit cards. My cell phone bill of $120.23 for last month is due on Friday. I had to pay my electric bill a few days late because a check that I had written a month ago just got cashed this week and threw me into a negative balance. This is not a place that my bank account has entered before. It is all good though, I am not my checking account balance.
I have debt right now, but I am still feeling supremely abundant. I am expecting a large tax refund to be direct deposited into my checking account (hopefully very soon), but I plan on holding on to that money to make sure that I can pay my rent for the next couple of months. I know that income will show up for me shortly (as I am now ready to be of service). I am so grateful that I paid off my car (I gave it away on my birthday last year to some friends that needed it) and my student loan. I am grateful that I no longer have those payments each month.
I have been treating myself these past months. Not pampering, but treating. I love good food. So, that is where I splurge. I just love having my superfoods around. I love sampling raw desserts and treats. I love creating yummy meals. I love dining at Juliano's. My credit card bill is not all food. It is the furnishings I bought when I moved in. It is my yoga classes. It is the plane ticket I bought to come home from India. It is a lot of things, but what has kept the total tallying is my love for amazing, yummy, superfoods.
I made all of these choices. I chose to have a big rent payment. I chose not to work at my friend’s café when she offered or anywhere else to make some spending money. I wanted my time to create and recuperate. I chose each purchase that I made. I have no regret.
I have been suggesting to myself for a while to lock these reliable plastic friends up and now I am ready! Finally! I am not renewing my yoga monthy unlimited pass (ok, maybe…). I am not going to buy everything that calls to me at Whole Foods or join friends for lavish meals by handing over my AMEX. I know that income will be coming to me soon. I am not locking up my credit cards now because I am losing hope, I just don't feel that those purchases are necessary anymore. I am ready to play this new game of living even more simply.
I am provided for! Credit cards or no credit cards! (Man, am I grateful for those credit cards though!)
"Abundance can be had simply by consciously receiving what has already been given." -Sufi Saying
"Let us learn to think of dollars, as we do of leaves on trees or oranges, as the natural and inevitable result of the law active within. There is truly no need to be concerned even when the trees appear to be bare, as long as we are conscious of the truth that the law is even now operating within to bring forth fruit after its own kind. Regardless of the state of our finances at any given moment, let us not be concerned or worried because we now know that the law acting in, through, and as our consciousness is at work within us, when we are asleep as well as when we are awake, to provide all those added things." -- Joel Goldsmith in The Infinite Way.